To be honest my first week back at uni was a bit of an emotional roller coaster for me. I made poor food choices, skipped a workout and found myself welling in complete & utter despair. It's only now, after spending three days with my loving partner & visiting a counsellor that I feel like coming back out, facing the world again & giving this semester a damn good go. For some reason I felt like life was no longer worth the effort & that things would be easier if I didn't try. Let's face it--- I know this isn't true. I've been happier up till this point than I ever have been before while following this program & I'm not going to go back. I am most certainly worth the effort.
I've written an hour-by-hour timetable to dictate to myself what I should be doing every day of the week and I have also finally printed out all the new recipes for this 12wbt round. By creating a timetable each week & sticking to it I should be able to manage my workload & thus my stress. I've also started taking herbal medicine for my insomnia, which has been bothering me for the past few months. I seem to have slept better in the last couple of days & my depression is starting to lift slightly so sleep deprivation was probably the cause to some extent. The family issues that have been troubling me are unlikely to be solved but at least now I am receiving outside support; I have another appointment for the counsellor this week.
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